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Repetition at it's worst by shirshitnitz, literature

A game called love by shirshitnitz, literature

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A game called love

Is this what love really feels like? Exquisite pain you cannot live without... Every word, every minute, every second of the day Of longingness towards the one that you want to see, he, whom you cannot do without... That special someone.... The endless tears, disappointment, sorrow & anger... Those that can't be stopped Emotions that can't be controlled Just surging out on its own. It feels so foreign. Infinite heartache, one after another Yet loving all the same. Why can't we know what lies ahead? Why can't we tell what's going to happen. It's scaring me, him, us... It's filling us with fear towards the uncertainty. Why di

The past by shirshitnitz, literature

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Counting the minutes by shirshitnitz, literature

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Counting the minutes

In the apocalypse of dreams I never thought that you'd be here Beside me, holding my hands Teaching me the meaning of love. Well, truth is, you weren't. You thought me what love meant In a distance of a few thousand miles Absence makes the heart grows fonder Oh, how it aches without you by my side! I'm counting the minutes till I meet you Counting the seconds before you return to me By my side, forever, in this blasphemy called love Love between two souls Two souls joined as one, Me & you. Monday will come soon enough :cries:

I Love You by shirshitnitz, literature

All She Needed was a Hug by shirshitnitz, literature

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All She Needed was a Hug

Broken arms and bruised skin All of it just brushed away Teary eyes, a child too thin No one cared enough to say "Daddy look! All As'!" She exclaimed with a glimmer in her eyes "Good for you, move on child..." He brushed her off again They never really cared did they? Through all the hurt and pain All she wanted was a hug So everything'd be okay "I don't love you anymore... I'm sorry..." That was what he said... "Fuck you!" She screamed Then she ran away. He broke her heart by his words He broke her with the hurt All she wanted was a hug So everything'd be okay She never got that hug Though it's sad to say She's alone

Soul-less by shirshitnitz, literature

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Internal Inferno by shirshitnitz, literature

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Internal Inferno

I stared at it. White, all of it. The whole of it. Not a speck of colour was on it. I took it in my hand, turning it over, trying to find a glitch in it. I found none. My blood boiled. Purity? Virtue? Heh. That is so cliche! Angered and humiliated, I took out my black marker pen and started scribbling on it. Soon, I ran out of black so I used my red marker pen. The dark red constrasted with the black making it a lovely sight. At least it was to me. "Damn! I'm out of red!" I said aloud to no one in particular, wondering what I should use now. I rumaged through her pencil case before I found her penknife. I folded up her sleeves, extended her

Teenage angst by shirshitnitz, literature

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Teenage angst

Let her crimson tears fall unto her face When she's hidden behind the stage Let her smile be plastered crystal clear To all those that surrounds her world Slowly, surely as she flashed her blade she tries her best to fade Away! Away from life itself Flick, flick, hurray Tingling, loving this burning sensation As she glides through her facades Though life throws her lessons, they're not always learnt Maybe they're meant this way Adieu to all, she bids goodbye A final slash is made Upon her veins, so pure and blue striken off their use And as she lies still on her bed Her colour slowly fades Until she's limp, no soul is left

Can't you see? by shirshitnitz, literature

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Can't you see?

Running, there you are, Running from me, from yourself Each time you come to me, You ask for my help, Yet... You throw it all back to my face I don't get you anymore, I swear I tried my best But whatever I do, It's not helping you is it? Or you wouldn't have tried suicide I'm sorry if I'm not a better friend, I'm sorry I couldn't help But can't you see? It's not up to me You have to live life yourself I can guide you if you need me to, I can be a listening ear, But I can't take away the pain that you feel inside Cos it's up to you my dear Can't you see? Those scars on your hand? They're making me real scared, Sure heck,

Untitled by shirshitnitz, literature

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Untitled

Enamoured by the shields she cast She hides inside her shell Away from all the prying eyes She sits inside and dwell Tears and joy she knows not now, Numbness's all she feels And when the confusion gets to much She allows her heart to bleed Her life is but an empty shell Full, yet desolate There's nothing left to hold her back What's there left to wait? She tries to feel, she tries heal The pain that excrutiates Her friends and family, Strangers still, Leaving them to fate She tries to see a brighter side Yet her imagination cuts her short Living on the pain she feels Life's thrown her alot She tries to find a solid groun

Dark Clouds Block My Way by shirshitnitz, literature

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Dark Clouds Block My Way

They say that a rainbow lies after every downpour And therein lies a pot of gold But try as I might to see it soar Dark clouds block my way They say that the sun shines after a thunderstorm But all I see is a darkened sky Painted velvet blue and black all around Dark clouds block my way They say if your lost in the dark of the night Find a star, let it guide But all I see is a big black sky Not a single star, nor the moon in sight Dark clouds block my way I try to see the light of day Find guidance in what I do However I fail just to stumble and fall Dark clouds block my way I try to see the rising sun, Painting the sky with

I wish.... by shirshitnitz, literature

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I wish....

I wish I knew what's going on, I wish I knew what I feel I'm wishing badly he's right here, Right here next to me I wish things didn't have to change Wish he didn't have to move, Wishing hard on a single star, Yet, my wishing's all in vain Sometimes.. I feel that I kinda hate the gods Cos they took away the man I loved most The only one that's seen through it all, The man I call dad... I'm trying to be strong, I'm trying to take things day by day Cos' I know that worrying won't do me good, All's there left is to pray So.. here goes Lady Isis, mother of the nile, lead my father back to me, I've not seen him for awhile now,

For the Lord I Shall Sin by shirshitnitz, literature

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For the Lord I Shall Sin

"NO!!! You can't make me do this! Oh god! This can't be happening! NO!!!" I pleaded. Yet it was all in vain they started to approach me one by one. All of them were dressed in green cloaks and white masks with a tattoo of the crescent moon and star on above their left breast. They encircled me slowly, closing in as their chants grew louder. I tried to fight them but it was of no use. I was too weak for them. I fainted. I awoke to find myself in a tiny cell. The thick wooden door was probably bolted from outside, so was the tiny flap with by which food and water was delivered to me. There were no windows and light was totally no

Voices from her Head by shirshitnitz, literature

Tired by shirshitnitz, literature

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Tired

What I feel right now It's something no sleep can cure, No hug can heal, No tears can show My eyebags are showing through Despite the large amount of sleep I get The irony of it all Is me myself Fatigue Just a word, With a hell lot of meaning It seeps into your bones Caresses your soul & leaves you feeling helpless Even more than before I don't really know what I feel now, But all I know is that I'm tired. Tired of breathing, being, Running, leaving Being a lie itself & trying to be who I'm not Life used to hold a greater meaning Yet now, Now I feel it all going down the drain Washed away by the misery that I feel Cr

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Social Murder by shadowed-angel, literature

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Social Murder

You, Mister Fox in your business suit, rallying the sheep and leading them to slaughter. Do you feel remorse at the stains on your hands or the ink on the cheque? I didn't think so. You, Marble Statue emotionless figurehead for the masses, an idol for the weak. Do you fear the cracks in your façade and time itself? I think you do. You, Shadowed Snake, skin-shedding serpent with a thousand faces. Do you know who you are underneath all your well constructed layers? You don't, do you? In this time-rich tapestry, we're molded by human factories. Fleshy robots, programmed daily obeying stupidity an

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shirshitnitz

Jul 8, 2006

Goodbyes [edit]

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aren't forever.:bye: :whiteflag: If I care about you, You will know my new devArt ID. I dont know when... But it will come... Right now... I can't do this anymore. I need a new beginning. My grandma's going through the scope on tuesday... Apparently there's an obstruction in her oesophagus... Gullet whatever.... It's 30cm down so that means it's right beside her heart... If the it ruptures... That's gonna be VERY bad...I'm hoping it wont even rupture cos to fix that rupture... She'll need an operation... Her survival rate is 15% I'm back cos I'm begging you guys to please, pleas, PLEASE help me pray for her...

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shirshitnitz

Jul 6, 2006

Giving Up.

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I'm tired. :faint: I'm sick & tired of everything happening now. I'm sick of all the darn cramps n constant menstrual flow. I'm sick of not bein able to do anything about my grandma. Im sick of keepin things a secret cos i'm ashamed of who i am. Im sick of bein confused whether he loves me cos im easy or cos of who i am inside. i need a break. From life.

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shirshitnitz

Jul 5, 2006

On A Hiatus / Rant

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I MAY not coment on every work that you guys do or all of your journals.... If  you need my help or anything, NOTE me... Most journals and art work have to be ignored for the time being. I don't have the resources to look through every one of them and I am really genuinely sorry. I'm going to start ranting so those of you who aren't interested in seeing my ugly, angry side, you can be excused now. :lick: As most of you may know by now, my internet is out.... I'm not really at work often cos my grandma's getting worse.... She's in Changi Hospital... Her doctors are being bloody incompetent... I have half the mind to screw the doctors in thei